so lovely to be with you
and
to be
being is
and as
being
there is peace
the peace of being
so when you welcome yourself
you are welcoming being
being is welcoming itself
and then this welcoming
there is no separate person
it is the totality
welcoming itself
when you welcome
the other
you are welcoming yourself
as that same being
that same beingness
that same reality
i refers to
being
awareness
always available
to you
always available to itself
although on one hand
i references
the limited
imaginary person
i also references
borderless awareness
when you investigate
i
you start from
i am somebody
i am a person
i exist in time and space
there is a story about my past
my family
my tribe
and some story about my future
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but this story
which is a series of images and feelings
is an appearance
it appears to you
it’s like a parade
that is parading itself
in front of your eyes
you are viewing
the story of me
and in order to view the story of me
and really get into it
you need to first define yourself
as a particular me
as a particular character
and buy into it
so there is this character
which appears to you
as images
memories
sensations
feelings
and you have bought into
in this way of defining yourself
this way of defining
your true nature your true self
because there is only one true self
only one
reality
and i identify myself
with
whatever it is
that
with that
the character
those images
those feelings
i identify myself somehow
as a person
with a personal life
a personal reality
and that’s the story of my life
i overlook
the i
that which
is not
an appearance
i overlook the reality of awareness
the reality of consciousness
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as i identify myself
with an object
but the
person you
believe yourself to be
to perceive
is in the movie
you are in the theater
viewing
you’re not actually in the movie
you’re not actually limited
you’re not a limited entity
limited character
subject to conditions
subject to situations
so the sense of limitation
ignorance is a choice we make
meaning consciousness
makes the choice
that i
the borderless awareness
am an object
a person
a female
a male form
how could you be something that you perceive
how could you be dependent and
limited by body-mind activities and sensations
that you perceive
that appear to you
in you’re night dreams
you dream various characters
and you dream yourself
to be
one of these characters
you dream that
every character in your dream including yourself
being a character in the dream
have their own personal thoughts
while in fact everybody’s thoughts in the dream
including the thoughts
of the character you imagine yourself to be
are your own creation
and in the dream you’re surprised
when you’re sitting with a friend
in the dream
and they tell you a joke
and you’re listening to the joke
and you don’t know the punchline
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and when they tell you the punchline
here you’re surprised and you start laughing
and yet aren’t you the one who is dreaming
dreaming the joke
you know already know the punchline
you are creating the entire show
and in spite of you being the creator of the entire show
you are surprised
in your night dream you
you open a door
and you’re surprised
by what you find
behind
behind that door
what you find in the room
and yet you’re the creator of the dream
you are the creator of the room
and you’re the creator of whatever it is that
is in that room
and yet you’re surprised
it’s exciting to be a character in the dream
falling in love
falling out of love
overcoming obstacles
feeling excited
elated
or feeling depressed
abandoned
lonely
there’s certain excitement in that
until you decide you’re no longer interested in
buying into
this
bill of goods
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and then you lift the veil