What am I without the past?


Youtube recording: 06/15/2025
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Dear Jeff, please let me know if this works better (on your Android phone):

Welcome everyone.

So invite yourself
to sink
deeper and deeper
into being,
into presence,
into not-knowing.

Inviting the universe to
its complete freedom
and its expression,
sensations within the body.

This moment, fresh.
New moment,
Not in time.

No stories.

This causeless stillness,
silence,
which effortlessly
perceives its own creation
as it creates,
perceives.

Allow yourself to be
without any definition
to recognize yourself
beyond the mind.

This mysterious awareness.

Playing the human game.

Creating infinite minds.

The impression of time,
memory.

It’s a current image
dissolving as it appears.

Somehow we hold on to
a past,
a me story,
narratives.

And yet,
moment by moment,
creation and resolution
meet each other.

Nothing phenomenal remains.
Only awareness always is.

Your most cherished image
or sensation
or story.
Where is it right now?

We have to go looking for it.
Where?
Where do you go?

Are you going anywhere?
Do we ever go anywhere?

Do we need to
define ourself
via the past,
via memories,
via thoughts?

What am I without the past?
What is the past in this moment?
Where is it?
What are we holding on to?

In this instant,
what is time?

Thoughts and sensations.

To be completely not-knowing,
such a freshness,
such freedom.

What is your passion?

There is a Zen Koan which says:
what is your face?
What does your face look like
before you were born?

Are we born?

That which knows birth and death
is birthless and deathless.

Clouds of various shapes appear
in the wide open sky.
They’re blown by the wind,
changing shape.
One minute, it’s a butterfly.
Next minute, a turtle.

Infinite creativity.

Can we be freshly created
moment by moment?

A fresh
appearance.
You cannot hold on to it
because it’s no longer there.
What remains?

Look how the river flows
effortlessly
without a past or a future.

And yet it plays the game of being a river.
It’s God’s game.
The game of being somebody.

Recognizing that somebody is nobody.

God’s dream.
Dreaming everybody
and everything.

Moment by moment, freshly.

The impression of time
refers to the eternity
of consciousness,
the timelessness
of being
of reality.

The non-movement,
the source of all movement.

Yet nothing is moving.

It’s just the impression of time,
the impression of movement.

Nothing can be
at two different places
at the same time.

The appearance of something
and its disappearance is instantaneous.
It seems that that thing,
that appearance
is continuing to be,
but it is no longer.

Only the light of awareness
is manifesting
as another form
or not
or not.

Manifesting as a butterfly
going from flower to flower.

Where is the butterfly?
What is it?
Mind appears in awareness.
Its reality.
Its fuel.
Its essence.

You are the wind,
the cloud,
the wide open sky,
the fragrance of a rose.

Unfolding moment by moment
in this borderless vastness,
this formless
Reality
which bypasses the mind.

So if you have any questions,
anything that you would like to explore,
please make sure to unmute yourself.

Raise your hand,
and you are welcome
to turn on your videos.
So any questions?


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