A field of Love


Magdi Badawy, 10-13-2024

Hello, everyone.
Lovely to be with you,
and nice to see old faces
and meet new friends.

We meet,
we meet as one.

We invite ourselves
and we invite each other
to just for now,
suspend the past,
suspend our stories.

Invite the mind
and the body to,
to relax,
to rest and
to recognize its essence,
which is available
to each one of us.

As this transparent,
effortless presence,
which is always available,
in which we know as peace,
causeless peace,
the peace of being,
that which we truly love.

As this peace,
there is no separation.

The me,
the you,
we are one in this peace.

The mind is stilled.

No preoccupation.

The breath is gentle.
There is a sweetness.

Thoughts may appear to us.
They appear
within this transparent
formless awareness.

What is it that gets disturbed,
if anything?

Do we need a narrative?
Do we need a story
to simply be aware,
to simply be?

The mind is habituated
to activity,
to movement.

But sometimes
it’s not necessary.

There is the non-movement.

What is it
in your experience right now?

Are we interested?
Or are we so habituated,
maybe even addicted to
doing,
maintaining the impression
of a personal doer.

And hearing these words
requires no effort.
Perceiving sensations
require no effort.

This effortlessness
is so beautiful.
There is a freedom
in effortlessness
because there is
no one doing anything.

The me-mind,
this me-belief,
is not engaged.

It’s our true essence.
It’s unmoved
in the midst of
seeming movement.

Unstirred,
undisturbed.
Protecting nothing.

Because what is there
to protect
when it comes to
the one and only reality?

What is this reality?
Is it some concept,
a new belief,
an idea?

Take a look
at your experience.

What is it
in your experience that
does not come and go?

There is inhalation
and exhalation.
Inhalation ends
and exhalation
follows.
What perceives that?

The me-thought appears.
What perceives that?

The mind is conditioned
and habituated to
create a personal entity,
believe in it, hold on to it.

But it’s nowhere to be found
outside of the belief that ‘I’,
meaning what?
‘I’ meaning
whatever it is
which right now perceives.
Whatever it is
which right now knows
and is aware
and knows it is aware.

That I,
which is this presence,
this knowingness,
this awareness.

Is it an object that you perceive?
Or is it the perceiving factor,
the perceiving element?

This perceiving element,
it’s always there,
but it has no form.

It’s not a female or a male.
It’s not a American or Chinese,
tall or short.

What is this personal limited self
that we believe in,
that we identify with,
that we worry about,
and struggle to improve.

When our reality is
this formless awareness,
this formless self.

We play the game of identity,
identification.
We identify with stuff.
We define ourself
as somebody.

Somebody means something mortal.
Good luck with that.

How happy is that?

Oh my goodness.
How much more time do I have?

This game of identification
is for you to wake up from.
Not to continue to engage in
habitually, but to wake up from it.

To see it.
To understand its effect.
The effect are worry and concern,
resistance, seeking,
endless desires,
wanting things to be different.

In order to safeguard
this fictitious entity.
Fiction.

And then there is
the sense of limitation,
the sense of lack,
the sense of separation,
the judgments.

Being identified with the body:
Oh my goodness,
what’s happening to me?
Me meaning identified
with the body.

Identification,
we hold on so tightly to it.

It’s exhausting.
And it’s not necessary.
It is
possible for you
to come into clarity
and understanding experientially
that in this moment and every moment
you are this transparent awareness,
this invisible,
invisible to the senses,
this invisible aware presence.

You have to be available
to the possibility that
reality is not material.
It’s not the mountain
and the river,
nor the body that is reality.

The reality of the mountains,
the reality of the body,
the reality of thoughts,
the reality of sensations is formless.

That which cannot not be.

What is it in your experience
which is and cannot not be?

It stares you in the face.

It is not a thing,
because things have
beginnings and endings.
They have a shape,
they have a form.

A thing does not perceive.
A thought does not perceive.
An object does not perceive.
No matter how complex it is.

The bio computer,
the human bio computer
so complex,
does not perceive.

The Instrument does not perceive.
Where is it that perceives?

Where shall you go for the answer?
Shall you go
to the church,
to the synagogue,
to the mosque,
to your parents,
the encyclopedias,
to the philosophers,
to the gurus?
To your politicians,
good luck!

You go to yourself.
Not to your beliefs.
Not to your storage bin,
which is full of trash.

You go to yourself,
to the source.

Not to your mind,
which is conditioned
and spinning and spinning,
but to that which does not spin.

To recognize yourself.
Being recognizing itself.

Freedom of being,
the joy of being,
the peace of being,
the ocean of being,
the ocean of bliss.

The light of being.

This ordinary awareness
is magical.
It has no form and no shape
and the mind goes:
Oh, what can I do with that?
Give me some goodies,
something colorful,
something shapely,
something exciting
so that I can spin and spin
and spin and spin.

But this ordinary awareness,
does not need anything,
which is freedom.

Why do we distance ourself
from ourself
via imaginary beliefs
about what we are.

I am this and that,
and you are this and that.
Maybe we have a match,
maybe we don’t have a match.

What sort of nonsense?
This personal identification,
the sense of separation,
wars, and conflicts, and battles.

So invite yourself to let go.

Without conditions.
Without holding on
to anything.

Completely let go.
It’s an exploration.
It’s an invitation.

It’s maybe worthwhile
to explore that.
But can we do that
without a begging bowl,
without expecting some goodies?

Just to be available
to letting go.
Just to see, still.

Because there is
the understanding
that the wide open sky
does not hold on to the clouds.

The ocean does not hold on
to the waves.

The wind blows freely.

The breath,
is impersonal.
It’s not holding on.

Holding on is imaginary.
It is the game of the trickster.
Don’t get tricked.

Okay.
So if you have any questions,
make sure you unmute yourself.
You can also raise your hand.

I believe there is a an icon
at the bottom of the screen.
Or if you just raise your hand
whichever way.

Photo by Soledad Lorieto on Unsplash


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